January 20

I had an appointment with Robin. She invited Bill. It was to investigate a complaint against me by the charge nurse in Highland's ICU that I had bulled my way into the unit during Rounds. Robin is unaware of the geography of the ICU. She was on site when it happened December 29th. She and I were "running" the memorial service for a young doctor in the Bariatrics unit who succumbed to cancer. I got paged out to get SOS for a patient. The Padre and I were turned back. Family had come in with us, and it got confrontational. I mostly remember the nurse saying "The unit secretary should not have let you in. She's new and doesn't know what she's doing." I am sure my anger was obvious, both for NOT being treated as a co-worker, and in defense of the secretary. But I had reported it to Robin, so I was confident that I had done well. To have this meeting, three weeks later, shook my confidence. And to have Bill there perturbed me. Angel is his student; she should have been there too. Why is she so standoffish to me, to the point of not being in on something a supervisor in training should learn???

Not my problem. I used the opportunity to tell them about the job interview with Melody Bogdon.