January 19

Obviously, I am going to have to get used to daily journaling. It has been too long since I sat here.

CP's mom Dorothy went in for her new knee on Monday, a week ago. All went well, and we visited. Bonnie Tyo was in the elevator and we struck up a conversation. Charles is the PT rector of Mt Morris for the last 4 years. He left the ACEM as soon as the rules changed. Dorothy went to Episcopal Church Home for rehab. She'll be there for three weeks, I guess. Connie and Toni are keeping the home fires burning.

I used a nasal spray Thursday night and came down with a sinus infection that has laid me low. The dog hair in my bedroom is getting pretty thick, so I suppose the dust mites are, too. Meanwhile, in my mind instead of in my head....

Camille is the Cephas volunteer from Buffalo. She is a chaplain at the Sisters Hospital, I think. Somehow, I get the feeling she doesn't approve of me. She goes to Attica for Cephas and "fills in" at Groveland. Maybe it's just her mannerisms. She is very reserved. Our session on Friday was superficial. We all realized that. She vocalized it. Oh, well. We each do our individual best.

Called Dad and he didn't reveal until halfway through that Cara had flown up to visit. Is she well-to-do or desperate? Not my problem. Her last two e-mails have sealed the deal. She asked to be treated as though she didn't exist, and I resisted. Now she will get what she wants. I ache over it, even as I resolve to do it. We are not a close family. Greg and I have the tightest bonds, and they are none too thick. Is it a deficit on the part of all of us? I joked about deciding who will be the family cement now Mom is gone, but she was not very successful, either. I don't think Uncle Dick of Uncle Bruce have heard from any of us in years.

I want to go to Alicia's installation. It would be nice to stop off and stay with Dad when I do. I don't think my car or my calendar could stand the stress, though. I'll talk to CP about it.

While I am on the subject of alienation, Dr. Dan seemed a little odd on Sunday. I am not close to him, but something was distracting him. The annual meeting went well, I thought. He asked me for a year-end report for PRAM and for a new year budget. They are done, but both show a deficit.