January 21

Houses of Healing at the jail, we discussed being judgemental, of stepping back and "seeing the light bulb inside the lampshade" One guy made the point for me: when he claimed to be able to avoid judging others, and I said I'll check in with him in 60 years, he said "I don't need to wait that long. I KNOW you'll be judging others before then." I laughed and said, "Yes, Mike, you didn't hear me when I said I do it constantly?" And he said, "Well you're not such a good Christian, then!" I saw others get the point.
Delphi Board this afternoon, discussed PTO, I remembered that as I teased Felicia for always being late. C.G.L.M., my feeling of alienation from them, especially from John, was palpable to me. I hope I don't provoke the attitudes I am perceiving. Do they see my lampshade, or my light? Denise was there. I returned to her comment about dealing with my "problem" in regards to my diaconal calling. I am really twitchy about that!